17 and counting

I am sure a lot of people have heard of the family that has 17 children and counting. Well I have watched the show a few times, and honestly everytime I feel like such a failure!! this mom has so many kids, but she doesnt raise her voice I doubt ever, and her kids are so well behaved. She took all her boys to a thrift store and didnt even yell when the boys got carried away, and she was pregnant!
The last episode I watched I found out that they have zero debt, they budget everything. they even make their own soap!!
Well of course i know that we are all made different and God has given us our own talents, but my goodness how they handle all of that is amazing. I know for a fact that I would never agree to have a camera crew follow me around during the day, it would not be a pretty sight.
I feel like it has helped me to realize that somethings I need help with.
I have gotten to the point now that I do most of my shopping through thrift shops, that has become a family event to "treasure hunt".
But I am definetly a person that once I thnk I need something , I must go out and get it right then and there.
I guess it is a growing thing and a wisdom thing, I know that God loves me still, and he sees that i have a heart to change, even if it is a very slow process.