Lately I have been thinking about being more, to more people. I feel like I am stuck in a rut of superficiality. Maybe it is the whole facebook world, where you can feel like you are having a close relationship with someone via computers, and not feel like anything else is necessary. I want to get past that. I want face to face conversations. Maybe because I spend a majority of my life in my house with my kids, and crave grown up conversations.
I feel like I have become the person "let's get together sometime." Which I completely mean when I say, but never actually follow up on it, and I feel bad. This past week a guy from Derek's unit passed away suddenly. I had just talked to him a few weeks back about getting together for a barbecue, now that time has passed. How I wish we could have had that barbecue. And it made me realize I have so many people in my life that I rarely see or chat with only via facebook. A majority of them, happen to live thousands of miles away, but still I don't connect with them on any deeper level then a recent status updates. The friends who live around me, some of them I haven't seen in months, and we live within a few miles. I know that "life" gets in the way, but what is life? I mean what are we doing that makes us too busy to visit with people we care about? When I say we, I mean me. I know people always say "you have so many kids, you are so busy" Which I guess is true, homeschooling sucks most of my time during the day,and kids' activities fill up more time, but honestly I have plenty of time to spend with people I care about if I tried.
I write this to inform my friends that if I have ever said "let's get together sometime", and I never did, let me know! Give me a day and time and I will be there. Hold me to it. I honestly want to be with you and spend time with you.
I want to look back and say "remember when..." not " I wish we got to spend more time together....."
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