One of those days

Had one of those days today where you just decide to throw in the towel. Which I did at about 10am. I decided to call a mom day. Yes, I can have one once in awhile can't I? Sometimes trying to balance being a mom and being a teacher can be difficult. There are times where I can be yelling at the kids for not doing their chores, and walk into the homeschool room with a smile on my face and pretend I am seeing them for the first time that day. I have told the kids that I will do my best to separate home mom with school mom. I know that as kids it can be difficult to see your mom all day everyday, and not get a break from being in trouble. So I really do try to respect that, and if they don't do well in school that day then it won't affect them at home later. If they do bad on a test, or didn't do their homework. I try to give out school related punishments like write sentences, or clean up the homeschool room. And when school is over if they get in trouble, I deal with it like a regular mom at home and either send them to bed or early or they can't play outside. But on some days, everything just mixes up and I need a break from both worlds. So as I laid in bed and filled my brain with mindless reality programming I got the guilt of being a bad mom and a bad teacher. After calming down I go out to check on the kids, thinking that they might feel bad that their poor mom was having a breakdown. Oh I felt their suffering... "Mom, can we play video games?" "Mom, can we have a snack?" I turned around and went back to bed. I can live with guilt.