Resolution Time

Well it is about the start of a new year and that of course brings about New Year resolutions. I am not the biggest fan of resolutions, just because I think it tends to bring on more stress and disappointment then any real joy or peace. I am however a fan of looking over the past year and to see where I am at now compared to just a year ago. The last few years I have really been focusing on my spiritual growth, not so much my physical growth. I used to make lofty goals of reading the Bible in one year, I started out strong and might make it to Leviticus before I crashed and burned and felt a huge disappointment in myself, and it left me feeling like I HAD to read the bible, just to get through it, not because I WANTED to read it and apply it to my life. So I started to change my goals and realized that an overall growth would be better then just trying something for a year. First step was devotional time. Another area where I would go well for awhile, then crash and burn by March.Well my life changed last year, and I came to realize that God does not expect me to have devotional time with him or read the Bible because it is expected of me, He wants me to because he wants to spend time with me, and my devotional time went from being a chore to being something I could look forward to, like having a good talk with a friend, and although I would like to spend more time with my "friend", I dont need to put it on a "to do" list.
So for this year my resolution is to be more opened to the Holy Spirit's guidance and direction in my life. I want to be more open to Him, to wherever he calls me. I have been feeling lost and tossled around by the "have tos". After leaving our last church, I feel a little lost in what I am called to do. I keep feeling like I should be doing this or that, because I am "called to", but I am slowly realizing that I need to listen to the Holy Spirit and not man's guilt put on me.
So there it is my goal for the next year................. and maybe to lose ten pounds. :)