A must read

My mother-in-law told me I should read this book called "The Shack". I was surprised she was so adamant for me to read it, but I said I would, and ultimately ordered it. Once i got it though I kind of put it off, and only read a little bit here and there. I finally told my mother-in-law I would read it this weekend. When I got home from church yesterday I decided I would lay down and read it. As I was reading it I cried and cried and cried. It was as if God was talking to my soul. I have never experienced anything like that before, it is the only time I have ever had something touch me so deeply. I dont know how to describe it via a blog, but I say everyone has to read this book.
I have loved God my whole life, I strive to be more like Christ daily, and daily I feel like a horrible failure. I have felt like i have been carrying all these burdens and respondsibilities with me, and I was too afraid to let go in fear of disappointing God. I had so many perceptions of what i was supposed to be doing or to be like, that I was missing out on so much of life. Derek would tell me constantly to relax, I took medicine to help me relax, but ultimately I was never relaxed, I always felt like I should do more, or something different. After last night I have come to see things clearly. I understand that God is proud of me, he accepts me for me, he already knows every failure and mistake I will make and loves me, so why should I try to be something else, when he loves me perfectly now?
God showed me last night what the heavy sadness I have carried since i was a small child. People have always said to me " I dont know how you took care of your brother, and went through all that. " And honestly I never knew what they were talking about, I chalked it up to it just being my life, and nothing was abnormal about it. but since I was a small child, I have carried that heavy sadness with me, which I have never let go. Last night I was able to let some of that go, I still have a ways yet, but I see now what others saw so clearly.
The only reason I am pouring my soul out right now, is to help others out. I think a lot of people struggle through alot of things similiar to me, and we are taught to hide these things, put on a happy face, and move on. I dont want that. I have always been open about things, but I was so blind!!
Anyone wanting a copy of that book, please tell me, I will send you a copy. Honest!!